It is because my birthday is stuck right between Christmas and Valentine's day, or maybe because all my friends are pairing up, or maybe because this week I have received facebook notices about 3 engagements and 2 weddings....but damn! As we like to say at work, my 'dinger' has gone off. This time last year I was happy, no, not happy... thrilled or maybe even elated to be single. This year I have to admit I'm (almost but not quite) lonely.
Today was my 28th birthday. I am planning a move to New York City. I have a small online business that is slowly but surely growing. I make my 'regular' living working in theatre; something that many people wish and hope and dream to someday do. I just lost 16 pounds! I am financially independent of my parents and I work in the arts (did I mention that?) Somehow all that still seems boring compared to my friends who are pairing up like animals for the flood!
I actually found myself flirting with a college student at a coffee shop today. I don't know how old he was, but he wasn't 28, and I didn't care!? WTF? I believe I have gotten a small taste of what it must feel like when your biological clock starts ticking and I am here to tell you -it isn't pretty.
Maybe the people at E-harmony have a special timer that tings with my biological clock, because today they sent me a 3 for 1 notice in my email, and I almost did it. geesh.
Well, on a nicer, less pathetic note I am participating in a craft fair the weekend before V-day at a place called The Space in Hamden, CT. Maybe there will be a nice crafty-artsy boy for me to oogle at there.